2011 blogtography

Looking back over this last year of blogging it is pretty obvious that I had a lot to say. How relevant it all is remains to be seen. But look past all the words and you see that I saw a lot of things through my camera’s eye. So rather than list the best (or the worst) events and thoughts of this year I give you the year under the Big Top in pictures…my favorites…which also kind of sums up life under the Big Top in 2011.

ages ago

best dressed

and today

evidence

truth is

pomped and circumstanced

waking up from my dream

requiescat in pace

the boy who lives

48

giving at BlogHer

best of lifetography

school begins

it’s very clear

I bought you Loubies?

belly to belly

all because of a ding in the universe

runs the world

mischief managed

a needed distraction

babysitting tonight

bump watch: 39 weeks

thankful day 5

tell me about the day she was born

working on my own invincibility

I feel like I barely scratched the surface of the lens that viewed our circus life this last year. But with this last picture, this last view, I offer my wish…my hope…my prayer for us all that 2012 may be filled to overflowing with joy even through the bad that may come and especially with all the good that we all deserve.

Happy New Year and God bless us all…everyone!

of streaks, resolutions and goals

In just two days my latest streak will be complete. Seriously, barring me falling down the stairs here under the Big Top and breaking something…god, please, no…I imagine running a mile or two tomorrow and Sunday will be easy-peasy. I’ve managed to run 93 miles so far every day since Thanksgiving Day so how hard can a couple more…or a couple more than that be?

I’m proud of my running this year even if I did miss out on the one planned endurance event that I trained so hard for. That was almost as frustrating as when I fractured my hip but I managed to rebound, albeit a little less intense, still I did get up and running again. Money, or the lack thereof kept me away from the races and the bling that I have grown to love but thank goodness I am still running. I think what helped was finding new and much less expensive ways to keep me motivated…like signing on for the Runner’s World Holiday Running Streak Challenge or revisiting the Couch to 5K program.

So now as the year and the running streak challenge comes to an end what next? How about another challenge? A new goal? As a rule I don’t make New Year’s Resolutions. There’s too much of a set-up for failing in my opinion. But it is time to begin a new personal challenge…and it is time to begin a new year.

Diet and fitness experts agree the best way to kick start one’s fitness and diet goals is to start off with a plan. Lay it out what you’re going to do before you start. Waiting until Monday, January 2 to get fitter or healthier or drop 20 pounds is going to make it all the harder. So now is the time to start with a plan. For me, the plan was to set the next fitness challenge and to mix it up a little because I do get bored easy. For me the next month is all about pushups and planks…UGH! Hate planks…hate them I do but by month’s end I will be planking all over the place stronger than ever. I’m also moving past the C25K program to the next level using the Bridge to 10K program. I know it seems like a leap back after running 5 half marathons in 2010 but this last year’s running setbacks gave me an opportunity to get back to the basics and there is nothing wrong with a little basic training…nothing at all. After January 2012 who knows what the next goal will be…maybe shredding again with Jillian or maybe…who knows? For now I am focused on my plan for the first 31 days of 2012. Other things to consider when making your diet and fitness plans for this year are:

  • cleaning out the refrigerator and pantry – get rid of all the holiday food, the sugary, fatty, empty calories and fill them up with easy, simple foods like frozen veggies, fruits, low-fat dairy so that you can make quick, low calorie snacks and meals any time of any day.
  • monitor your weight – Don’t have a scale? Get one now before January 2. Typically I am not a fan of scales but the latest findings of those who have lost a lot of weight and kept it off is they do monitor their weight…some even on a daily basis. Personally I step on the scale once a week. I confess I don’t care much for the number I see but I ignore that. What I look for is that it doesn’t change in an upward fashion week to week. During my holiday running streak, in spite of my usual gorging on holiday yummy goodness, that number has not changed at all. but besides the scale, monitor your weight by how your clothes fit. Pick out that one pair of jeans, you know, the “skinny” jeans in the back of your closet and use that also to monitor changes in your size. For me, especially during winter months I try to stay in jeans. It’s very easy to not notice increasing inches and pounds in those stretchy yoga pants but in my jeans, well there it is everyday for me to see. I’m happy to say that I needed to add a new notch in my belt which makes me happy in spite of that number on the scale.
  • get enough sleep – UGH! I imagine I will always struggle with this one. Oh the joys of shift work. Still getting enough sleep is so very important for the health and well-being of us all.
  • eat breakfast – Yes, here is another problem for me. But it doesn’t have to be a huge meal. All one needs is around 200 calories to start the day – a bowl of oatmeal with some fruit or even a skim milk latte – just something to get you going.
  • load up on the veggies and fruits and decrease the simple carbs…yes, the easy, go-to, vending machine type carbs…sigh!
  • cut out or limit the alcohol…sigh! I only half joke that I run so that I can drink wine but if I were to limit it more so I am quite certain that number I hate on the scale would decrease. Yeah.
  • eat at home – thanks to changes in menus here in California I can now know that the meal I have ordered when eating out is 1,700 calories and the dessert I was eyeing is 1,800 more calories…hurray! Besides the fact that we can’t afford to eat out much at all these days here under the Big Top, this is one of the reasons why I enjoy less eating out…another would be the serious lack of decent restaurant choices here in my neck of the woods.
  • establish a support network – nothing like a little, or a lot of good old fashioned accountability to keep you motivated whether it is short term fitness goals or a big time New Year’s resolution. For me hooking up with the Shredheads nearly three years ago was the kick starter. There I have made friendships and connections that have kept me motivated all this time. Get connected with a buddy, a small group an online community…whatever fits best for you but get connected. You need this. You might not need it January 2nd when you are hitting the ground running or even two weeks later but at some point you are going to be discouraged, frustrated, sore, tired or just plain not motivated; that is when you your support, your buddy, your tribe kicking you in the ass to get a move on now.
  • reward yourself – There is nothing like a little reward for meeting short term goals as you work towards whatever your big goal is. This month I came across a great idea on Pinterest that I am already doing. I already have a few bucks or more saved up and come March I am hoping for perhaps a spa day with the money I have earned.

So call it another streak or a resolution or a goal but I have a plan for January 2012:

  • I have cleaned out the pantry, refrigerator and freezer and re-stocked it with simpler, cleaner, more nutritionally sound foods to fuel up with.
  • I will run at least 3 days a week logging 3-5 miles each run.
  • I will work up to 100 pushups in one setting by January 31.
  • I will work up to 10 one-minute perfect planks by January 31.
  • I will set my next goal for February before January comes to an end
  • I will continue, as always, to work on my self respect

I should have named this blog “Jenny”

Today, December 29, four of my friends on Facebook are celebrating birthdays and they all are named Jennifer, Jenny or Jen. This includes Jenny the Bloggess. Today is also the 7th anniversary or birthday of this Adventures in Juggling of mine.

Seven years and 2,922 posts later, I sure did babble on and on and on didn’t I? And no one stopped me!

Seven years ago I was the mom of just one teenager who was just beginning to test the waters of adulthood because she was 18 and an adult. I was juggling a mind and butt numbing 90 minute commute from the Central Valley to the Bay Area working in the Bay Area hospital I began my nursing career in along with the very busy lives of my five children. Seven years ago I was certain that we would always be feeding Daniel with a feeding tube since he had no desire what so ever to put anything in his mouth. Seven years ago I was ready to put behind me a horrible year filled with so much loss and so much grief even if I did drop 30 pounds thanks to all the stress and grief related to losing so many family members in just one year.

Over the last seven years, I have blogged a lot about my life, my career, my family, the never-ending teen aged drama, the adoption of my son, his ongoing special medical and developmental needs, the ebbs and flow of marriage, my darling husband’s mid-life crisis and my own perimenopausal craziness, children growing up and running away from the circus, having babies, getting married, going to college and on and on. Along the way I am learning as I go what I can and can not write about and yes, my family does dictate it at times. As I learn these lessons I do find myself gaining wisdom of what I can over share and what I should just keep close to my heart and here under the Big Top. Still, I don’t see myself stopping because as long as I am juggling, I will be blogging this crazy adventure of mine. Thank you, thank you everyone for reading along with me!

still driving the mom car

Last week it became clear that although I wish I was outgrowing the mom-car, as long as I willingly fall on the sword of looking after Hazel and Fallon while Holly works, I am not outgrowing the mom-car. There in the middle row of my van is Hazel’s car seat and the base for Fallon’s infant seat. That’s it, that’s all. As for Daniel, well Daniel is back in the third row and he is more than fine with that as long as he doesn’t have to sit next to Hazel…girl germs, you know.

But wait. That is not the end of the car seats stuffed into the mom-car. Not by a long shot.

No…no one else is pregnant around the Big Top. Definitely not. Actually with the start of the new year, California Vehicle Restraint law will change. Currently the law is as follows:

Children *MUST* be secured in an appropriate child passenger restraint (safety seat or booster seat) IN THE BACK SEAT OF A VEHICLE until they are at least 6 YEARS OLD or weigh at least 60 pounds.

But beginning January 1, 2012 the law will be:

Children *MUST* be secured in an appropriate child passenger restraint (safety seat or booster seat) IN THE BACK SEAT OF A VEHICLE until they are at least 8 YEARS OLD or 4′ 9″ in height.

Anyone following Daniel’s growth, or lack thereof knows what this means. Yup, the boy will be back in a booster seat.

The funny thing is here is where I, the PTA reject, the sub-par cheer mom, the all around bad mom for reasons far too many to list suddenly becomes the “good mom”. For me the law is plain and simple. My 3 feet 10 inches tall nine year old, ten years old in less than two weeks (Yipes!) son will be rocking out the third row of the mom-car in the booster seat. Thank god we hung on to them! He will be riding in the booster seat because it is the law and because it is for his own safety according to this years revised guidelines and recommendations by the American Academy of Pediatrics and the National Highway Traffic Safety Administration.

Motor vehicle crashes are the leading cause of death in children ages 3-14 years of age. Why would a parent not want to do everything possible to protect their child while he or she is riding around in the mom-car? But it  would seem that for some families in my circles there is a dilemma…
the kids are going to be mad…
how dare  the government infringe on their rights and be a nanny state…
now they have to buy a booster seat…
and on and on the complaints have been voiced.

Really?

The answer, for me is a no-brainer. I just can’t imagine trading my son’s safety, my son’s life for the sake of avoiding a little whining and protest from him. I can’t imagine swapping his protection just because I resent (not unlike a six-year child) a law put into to place for the protection and safety of children…and eventually for the ever-growing burden on the tax payers…you, me, everyone. Who do you think covers the expenses of the catastrophic consequences of those who refuse to obey (common sense) traffic safety laws? Here under the Big Top, the answer is simple. Daniel rides in the booster seat. He can complain all he wants if he chooses to.

He’ll live.

So last night I pulled out the booster seat from the storage shed and set it up in the mom-car. Yes he protested…loudly. Then we talked about it. We talked about the fact that it is the law and whether we agree or disagree we are still compelled to obey the law or deal with the consequences. We talked about what those consequences would be…fines…potential serious injury or worse. We talked about the fact that he won’t be the only kid in his neighborhood climbing back into the booster seat…or his Tae Kwon Do class…or his third grade class…or at his school…or in the entire state of California. he listened carefully  and then agreed that yes, he would ride in the booster seat for at least another 11 inches of growing. He even reassured me saying, “I’ll be fine, Mom.”

He knows.

He’ll live.

And today while running errands with mom in the mom-car, Daniel rocked the booster seat.