Day 25 → The reason you believe you’re still alive today.
Because, when I consider my last four plus decades of life and all things related to it, I am truly so damn lucky. And that is what I am choosing to focus on and give thanks for today.
Happy Thanksgiving everyone!
Day 24 → Make a playlist to someone, and explain why you chose all the songs.
My Dear Friend,
Don’t judge what might appear to be, at first glance, an almost schizophrenic collection…think of it as eclectic.. puzzling, but a little fun, a little serious…eclectic. I am presenting to you a playlist of just thirty songs from the 1500 songs currently loaded on my iPod. They are just a very small sampling of the songs that make me think of you and the memories we have made, laughter and tears we have shared.
Enjoy!
Love,
Me
Day 23 → Something you wish you had done in your life.
Continuing with my resolve to live my life with little or no regrets, I try my best not to dwell on all the woulda-coulda-shouldas.
There are a lot of them.
But, on the other hand, a lot of the things that I wish I had done in my life would have likely have steered me off the winding path that has brought me this far. I might not have moved to California…perhaps I would have never met my darling husband which then leads to the fact that I might not have been blessed with the amazing five children that I have which would then mean that there might not be my Hazey-Face…what if I missed the turn-off that led me to the best job ever (for me)? If I think of the things that I wished I had done then I must reconcile the possibility that the most important people and things in my life might not be here. That would suck.
Bu-ut, if I was pressed to admit to something that I wished I had done I would have to confess that I wished I had the opportunity that my darling daughter #2, Zoë, has. She is enjoying the next great adventure in her life that is college life far from home. Well, not too far. She is a few hours drive away from here. But she is adapting quite well to life on campus and managing to learn a little and discover so much about the big, wide world away from the Big Top. I follow her Tweets and Facebook postings, call her, text with her and sometimes Skype as well as weekly log in to her online radio show where I get to see her…and admire her…and be oh-so proud of her…and to miss her a lot!
It all seems to me to be so much fun, so exciting. But I imagine that it is filled with a lot of stress, some loneliness and a little bit of trepidation because I believe that is what every young person truly becoming a grown up must deal with. It’s part of the process. I very much survived that process but sometimes when I am hovering and stalking my college girl, I wish that I had the chance for a similar adventure like my Zo-Zo is on now.
She’s coming home today for a few days before it is back to work and to school for my little girl all growed up. But until then, she will be hugged on sooo much by everyone here under the Big Top!
Day 22 → Something you wish you hadn’t done in your life.
I so want to state here that I live with no regrets. I want to declare that there is nothing that I have done in my life that, when I look back on it, wish that I hadn’t done. But that isn’t the way that it is. Perhaps we as humans aren’t wired to be like that…at least we who are not sociopaths.
But then again, I work hard at not focusing on my mistakes, my regrets, my past. I guess that is the result of coming from parents who have done practically nothing but looking back and re-live it all over and over again. Perhaps the re-hashing of the past was part of their parenting so that their children won’t make the same mistakes but after awhile it became tiresome…as in oh-gawd-she-is-going-to-tell-that-story-again! Taking a giant step back and looking at some of my family who choose to always look back at their past, their mistakes, their regrets, their hurts, their pain, I see people who are literally stuck kind of like Lot’s wife. With that observation in mind, I have for years consciously chosen to look ahead. I try hard to keep my eyes on the horizon ahead of me as I continue forward in this life of mine. My mistakes are many and have often changed directions of the path that I am on in this life, but I continue to forge ahead grateful for the lessons learned and the mercy that is mine.
For What I’ve done
I start again
And whatever pain may come
Today this ends
I’m forgiving what I’ve done
Day 21 → (scenario) Your best friend is in a car accident and you two got into a fight an hour before. What do you do?
Um, what a friend should do; what a friend must do.
What would you do?
A true friend is someone who is there for you when he’d rather be anywhere else.
Len Wein
