kids ignore this; mommy has to share


…that I am this week’s featured Mominatrix!

Considering that the Mominatrix herself, my fellow tutu wearing Tiarathoner, Kristen, has included me in a group of some of the hottest moms on the Internet” in her weekly feature over at Imperfect Parent, my kids are just going to have to get over any bit of embarrassment. Sorry kids, but you can not argue with the Mominatrix. She knows all things when it comes to hot moms, even hot moms as old as your mom. Besides kids, were it not for your mom being viewed as hot, well, you might not be here.

Ask your dad.

It could be worse. I could drive around town and then show up to pick you up at school wearing my wrinkly, ratty flannel jammies with my bare face and bed-head. Of course I would call out loudly for you and wave frantically so all could see that yes, I am your mom. Now that would definitely kill you.

So have you checked out the Mominatrix’s Guide to Sex yet?

OMG, why not?

but I am THAT mom


No, I am not that mom who will put up with her children screaming or running amuck in public places where good behavior is expected…anymore! But I am the mom who will gladly, proudly celebrate that which makes me an awesome, phenomenal woman and joining Lotus of Sarcastic Mom and other equally phenomenal, awesome women and mothers in the Bewbfest ’09.  It was all good, clean fun as we celebrated all the glorious shapes and sizes that we are. It was all the more fun because I am the second runner-up in this year’s Bewbfest. I have to thank everyone who voted for me…repeatedly including my darling hubs (nice to know he still appreciates the girls) and my older kids. It’s nice to know that the average sized, over forty, mother of five, grandmother of one rack can stack up to the 20 and 30-something mom bloggers out there. Thank you!

Of course right about now I am imagining my mother and her fellow “bra burners”  are cringing over what might appear to be blatant objectifying of my physical self. Perhaps it is a little objectifying but I see it more as celebrating and reclaiming a little bit of our physical selves. It seems that much is measured  in our physical selves as women, particularly our breasts: what is considered to be the ideal size and shape, our sexuality, our ability and decision to nourish the children we give birth to and how well we “hold up” as we age. No wonder so many of us complain about and dislike our own bodies, including our breasts. To me, The Bewbfest and The Boob Emancipation do a little celebrating and reclaiming the right to celebrate part of our own physical womanliness. There’s nothing dirty or tasteless in that. It’s just boobs, our boobs and we are pretty damn proud of them. I don’t see that as setting us back but rather liberating us even further. Being the mother of four daughters and grandmother of the most amazing grand daughter it is a big deal that I model confidence and a little self-love in the body that God has given me for my girls.

I have to say that I owe my size and shape not only partly to great genes (thanks Mom and Dad), a pretty great bra but also to my joining that cult that is the Shredheads. Remember when I posted my pre-shredding picture at over 180 lbs? Yeah, I’d like to forget it too. But I’m glad I did post it and share the beginning of my shredding experience. I am even more grateful for the accountability, support and beginning friendships that the Shredheads has offered. Most of us have moved past Jillian’s 30 Day Shred and Bob’s Yoga finding running, weights and other forms of exercise equally challenging in our quest for fitness. The results among my fellow Shredheads has been amazing and inspiring.  For mepersonally I have seen a significant amount of weight and inches lost and currently I am just 10 lbs shy of my personal goal. I’m not going to make the mid-July, family vacation date I set for myself to achieve that goal but I have to say that I am going to be very close. I couldn’t be prouder of that achievement too. Even better, the added bonus of all of this shredding and now jogging/walking/weights/yoga is my darling hubs is now heading to the gym working with a trainer and it is beginning to show.

Looking good in jeans,that little black dress, a swimsuit, and when I am brave enough, a bikini is pretty cool. Looking great for a forty-seven year old woiman and being told so, especially by my husband and kids is wonderful. Feeling good physically and mentally, feeling strong and feeling incredibly energetic so that I can do the juggling that I do is the best of all. Yes, I am THAT kind of mom. I am doing this for me, my hubs, my kids and my grandkid. I can’t think of a better reason.

and the winner is…


ME! I am Christian Siriano’s twin (okay maybe more like I resemble his mother…aunt?)

and the winner of Sunshine’s And the Pursuit of Happiness 2nd Annual Celebrity Look Alike Contest.

Trust me, there is no other blogger award being awarded today that is as important as this one which is why I graciously accept this award and thank everyone who voted for me…often…especially all of my circus clowns because I told them to. That’s just further proof that in spite of all of my juggling of all that I juggle I am a good mom because they do exactly what I tell them to do…sometimes!
Thanks kids!
Thank you everyone!
Thank you Fendi eyewear!
And thank you Christian for being so fierce!
P.S. to Sunshine: when you do go on the Bonnie Hunt Show, bring me along and get Bonnie to book Christian. We’ll have so much fun. It will be totally a fiercely hot mess.

blogger rising


I am so honored to receive this award!

Over at The Rising Blogger, JHS, Esq. of Colloquium has recently taken the reigns as editor where she and her collaborative team are devoted to finding and spotlighting the best of the blogosphere in order to help bloggers find, enjoy, appreciate, and validate the work of other bloggers.

The Rising Blogger Post of the Day Award is bestowed upon original content that is insightful, inspiring, newsworthy, educational, informative, touching, creative, interesting, humorous or . . .

Like I said I am so surprised and honored to receive this award and to be featured. The news came at a great time for me last week when I was really questioning my baring perhaps a little too much of myself. The post selected, Breathing In and Out, was, more or less, a rant that spewed from my mind to my fingertips as I two-finger typed what I was feeling at the moment. I filtered nothing in that post. As the week progressed, I found myself re-thinking that post as well as a few more that followed. I want to be authentic to myself and to those who read this blog…and who might read it in the future. Still I don’t want to hang out too much of my garbage and baggage like my neighbor hangs out her underwear for the neighborhood to see. I reveal perhaps maybe only 5% of what goes on here under the Big Top. Of that 5% I try to share mostly good and funny things. But family life isn’t all perfect wonderful-ness like in the movie Pleasantville. So sometimes you get a glimpse of some of the garbage that can accumulate around this circus.

It’s a fine line we who chose to blog our lives sometimes walk. How true are we to ourselves, our family, our friends and our readers if we only share the warm, melted chocolate chip cookie goodness of our lives with our audience? Is that all they want to see or read about? As I teeter along that line I try to remain authentic by reminding myself what blogs do I read everyday without fail. Are they the Leave It to Beaver, Mayberry RFD type blogs or are they a little more real than that? My style of blogging, which I hope is mostly authentic, is a lot more real than wholesome, perfect life in 20 minutes with frequent commercial interruptions. For me, this award validates my choice to be a little more transparent. Life under the Big Top is a lot of joyful, hopelessly loud, chaotic fun and I certainly could never make up the stuff I do share. But life under the Big Top is sometimes messy too because it is so joyful, hopelessly loud chaotic fun. It’s a freakin’ circus! What else would anyone expect?

So with my acceptance of this award I am asked to pay it forward by nominating a post of another blog whom I feel is worthy of this honor. Keeping with the idea that we readers seek blogs where writers are real I want to nominate a post written by Nurse Sean. Sean is fairly young nurse in his career (compared to my over 18 years as a nurse). In the post A Dark Place, Sean shares his inner and outward struggle as he settles in his new role as a nurse in an intensive care setting. I identified with his dark place as a newer nurse trying to prove to the veteran nurses and docs alike that I had the skills and knowledge base to be there. As a veteran nurse, Sean’s post reminded me my own personal resolve not to be one of those crotchety old nurses who eat the fresh-faced-less-experienced-nurses-just-starting-out for breakfast. I used to be just like them only seeking to fit in, to learn more, to gain more experience and occasionally, be recognized for doing a good job…I still do in my RN-dotage. I imagine in literally any career, vocation or walk of life there are “young ones” like Sean who find themselves in a similar dark place where they are just trying to fit in and do their job well. I would hope that anyone who would read what Sean shares would be able to identify with him, even if they aren’t ICU nurses and perhaps gain a little more grace and acceptance for those around them. It is Nurse Sean’s post A Dark Place that I nominate for consideration for The Rising Blogger’s Post of the Day Award.

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