giving thanks

There’s much to be thankful for on this day of Thanksgiving in the US. Last year a moment like this would not have been imagined because, yes, his health was THAT bad. He couldn’t/wouldn’t see it but everyone else saw it…and often would take me aside to express their concern.

So I should give thanks for this moment.

I do.


And I also give thanks for what happened ten months ago too because he was so damn lucky and finally could see what everyone could see and worried about.

That expression of gratitude likely makes me a horrible person in the eyes of some. That’s probably why I am so good at Cards Against Humanity.

Oh, and I give thanks for the fun we had as a family playing that last night.

Happy Thanksgiving y’all.

Sometimes our light goes out but is blown into flabby another human being. Each of us owes deepest thanks to those who have rekindled this light. ~ Albert Einstein


letting it rain

The best thing one can do when it’s raining is to let it rain ~ Henry Wadsworth Longfellow

It rained today. Us thirsty folk here in California get very excited when it rains these days because of the extended severe drought so we do silly things like celebrate…because it’s raining!!!

It rained today, So why not put up one of The Big Top Christmas trees?

And so I did.

And if that isn’t reason enough, Jodie is coming home for Thanksgiving tonight.


finally Fall

Designers want to dress me like Spring, in billowing things. I don’t feel like Spring. I feel like a warm, red Autumn.

~Marilyn Monroe

After a long, hot as balls, dry Summer here in the Central Valley, it is finally Fall y’all! Sweaters and boots weather at last!

Someone please remind me of this day when I start whining in a couple of months.


belongs right here

“Just cheer up” is almost universally looked at as the most unhelpful depression cure ever. It’s pretty much the equivalent of telling someone who just had their legs amputated to “just walk it off.” …well-meaning people will tell me that I’m keeping myself from recovering because I really “just need to cheer up and smile.” That’s when I consider  chopping off their arms and then blaming them for not picking them up their severed arms so they can take them to the hospital to get reattached.

~ Furiously Happy – Jenny Lawson

Now how in the world does the above passage have anything to do with sailing on the San Francisco Bay on the most perfect Fall day?

Probably no connection at all; except for the fact what I was thinking and feeling in the moment as I saw this sailboat while cruising on the bay that glorious, perfect Fall day this past Saturday, What a different place I am at from where I was a year ago. It’s not that I am no longer struggling with depression and anxiety, but rather that I am continuing to struggle with it…but the struggle is a good thing in the sense that I am, struggling that is. Struggling means that I am getting up and leaning into the headwinds that try to knock me down and keep me down.

Perhaps this photo belongs in this blog post after all!

Meanwhile, I was smiling a lot this weekend because there was so much good to feel good about…as opposed to feeling shitty because there is so much shitty to feel. Basically, right now, I’m going with the flow, letting the winds help to move me along…again a lot like that sailboat was on the bay.

Yeah, this photo totally belongs in this blog post!