belongs right here

“Just cheer up” is almost universally looked at as the most unhelpful depression cure ever. It’s pretty much the equivalent of telling someone who just had their legs amputated to “just walk it off.” …well-meaning people will tell me that I’m keeping myself from recovering because I really “just need to cheer up and smile.” That’s when I consider  chopping off their arms and then blaming them for not picking them up their severed arms so they can take them to the hospital to get reattached.

~ Furiously Happy – Jenny Lawson

Now how in the world does the above passage have anything to do with sailing on the San Francisco Bay on the most perfect Fall day?

Probably no connection at all; except for the fact what I was thinking and feeling in the moment as I saw this sailboat while cruising on the bay that glorious, perfect Fall day this past Saturday, What a different place I am at from where I was a year ago. It’s not that I am no longer struggling with depression and anxiety, but rather that I am continuing to struggle with it…but the struggle is a good thing in the sense that I am, struggling that is. Struggling means that I am getting up and leaning into the headwinds that try to knock me down and keep me down.

Perhaps this photo belongs in this blog post after all!

Meanwhile, I was smiling a lot this weekend because there was so much good to feel good about…as opposed to feeling shitty because there is so much shitty to feel. Basically, right now, I’m going with the flow, letting the winds help to move me along…again a lot like that sailboat was on the bay.

Yeah, this photo totally belongs in this blog post!