the emotions of donating, tossing and keeping

Spring has sprung and currently under The Big Top there is Spring cleaning going on. Living with a circus act that borders on potentially the next episode of Hoarders, one can imagine how much exhausting fun that can be.

Let me tell you.

But with a list of stuff to address room by room by room on a list firmly affixed to The Big Top fridge…where EVERYONE can see it, things are slowly getting done…slowly because this circus act is a bunch of pack rats. Imagine the pain and suffering that is involved in sorting through ephemera that is old boxes that once housed cell phones from years ago, extension cords, mugs and wine glasses galore from art, wine and food festivals of days gone by, stacks of video tapes and games with nary a VCR or compatible gaming console anywhere…and on and on and on…

And a room with a toy chest and shelves that house all the treasures belonging to who was once a little boy…treasures long forgotten and ignored…until we spend a weekend beginning to sort through. We’re going to empty the toy chest sorting it all into piles I gently suggest…things that are broken…things we don’t ever play with ever anymore…things we want to save.

What about all the Hot Wheels and the Lego sets andI can see all the stress and emotions as he begins to question.

Right now we’re just going to go through the toy chest in your closet. The toy chest you haven’t opened in three years I bet.

With relief, he laughs, More like four years.

He knows.

A few hours later, we are surrounded by a large pile to toss, a smaller pile to donate, an even smaller pile to keep and an empty toy chest save for a few scraps of crumpled paper on the bottom.

Oh hey! that’s my name!

:::SOB!:::

What about all these Hot Wheels?, he points out the plastic bins stuffed full of, I imagine, all the Hot Wheels cars known to man that are stacked on the closet floor.

I think we’ve done enough today.

Well…except for this.

Fourteen years later, a shoe box full of NICU memories finally on display. Just in time, you know to thoroughly mortify the teenager who was once the micropreemie.

A toy box emptied. A shoe box emptied. You can’t imagine how much was accomplished in spite of a boy’s room still full of so much growing up.

Spring cleaning, exhausting y’all! Emotionally exhausting y’all.

putting up with the rain

Remember when I bought myself a sweet pair of rain boots and predicted the possible end of El Niño? Sometimes I hate it when I am mostly right because given the bright, sunshine-y days and the fact that my favorite son put away his jeans and sweat pants and pulled out his shorts, it would seem that our El Niño sputtered and faltered…

Until Friday and the beginning of our Spring Break.

Extended forecast promises rain and rain and thunderstorms and more rain all but one day this Spring Break. Perhaps I didn’t break El Niño after all. A good thing, a very good thing. But looks like once again our Spring Break plans are spoiled. It’s okay. Expert juggler that I am sure we can find alternative fun Spring Break things to do…added bonus is I’ll get to wear my sweet rain boots.

The way I see it, if you want the rainbow, you gotta put up with the rain.
~ Dolly Parton

fixed again #2

Spring has most definitely sprung here in the Central Valley! Actually Winter never really came which only makes the severe drought here in California all the more real. With Spring comes the warmer temps and time to break out the warm weather fashions. Since my stuck-in-a-rut closet has been edited there is definitely room for another fix from Stitch Fix.

Oh happy day!

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I couldn’t wait to try on what Alicia had chosen for me especially when I saw that she had been looking at what I was pinning on Pinterest.

Those floral jeans!

What can I say, I loved, loved, loved the Dear John Niki Cropped Skinny Jean!

Others seemed to as well…Zelda, the barista at Starbucks, three of my kids, Daniel’s endocrinologist, a random stranger while Daniel and I were getting lunch after his endocrinology check-up at Valley Children’s. The skinny jeans fit well and were very comfortable especially during the two hour drive to Valley Children’s in Madera yesterday. I’m definitely keeping these!

Up next, Market & Spruce Aleah V-Neck Heathered Dolman Sleeve Shirt.

Hmmm…Love the color but honestly, that’s about it. I spent some time tugging and adjusting as every movement revealed bra straps and the overall shape just seemed to add thickness to the middle. Sorry, but I am just not a dolman sleeve kind of girl and I gave up the one shoulder Flashdance look around the time I gave up perms. This will go back.

Next, the Skies Are Blue Samira Cargo Vest.

I think I pinned something similar to this but this vest was just too much. Too many ties which were extra long and proved to be delightful cat toys for Zelda. Too many pockets…I know, it’s a CARGO vest. The collar was weird and just would not lay right and the hood just added even more unnecessary bulk. Sorry, no. Sending this one back.

Next is the Loveappella Whitnee Button Neck Striped Shift Dress.

Pay no attention to the blinding white legs.

I really liked this super comfortable, body-hugging dress. I could see this as a perfect dress to pair with a cool scarf and denim jacket for a day look as well as a date night with my darling husband. I imagine that he would appreciate the way it hugs every curve too. I admit that at this moment I am on the fence with this one. It’s warm here in the Central Valley and this would most likely be spending the Spring and Summer just hanging in my closet. I do like it but I’m thinking that I probably will send it back for now. I need pieces that will work now and through the summer.

Finally, there is the Bria Coil Beads Necklace.

So pretty! I’m keeping.

So now I will send back the selections that did not work along with comments on what worked and did not work with this month’s Fix. This is only my second fix. I’m learning very quickly the importance of communicating with your Stitch Fix stylist more about my style, shape and lifestyle. All in all though her selections prove that we are off to a great start. I can’t wait to see what will come with the next Fix.

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catching a glimpse

The school Spring portraits arrived last week and suddenly I catch a glimpse of the future.

Just a glimpse of the young man my son is becoming. OMG! this is happening much too fast.

And to stop the excessive weeping I focus instead on the backdrop that Lifetouch has posed my son in…or perhaps they DID take him to the banks of the Stanislaus River.

Maybe?

Perhaps.

Yeah, no.

Distracting myself is virtually impossible so I go back to the reality that my boy-child is not the little cherub that he was in kindergarten

:::SOB!:::

I would ask him to slow down but I know that it would be impossible.

Manhood is literally just around the corner.

still just like a circus

One would imagine as my circus act is grown and some are out of the house perhaps it would be a little less like like a circus.

Yeah.

No.

Currently we have a house guest for the next month.

Zoë’s Prince Albert. He’s literally the size of a small beagle and he is definitely overwhelmed, a little pissed off and definitely scared as he has been hiding behind the drapes, the washer (how in the world?…) and the toilet in the kids’ bathroom.

Then there is this feathered little pecker.

Now what in world could one of god’s wonderful, little songbirds be doing to be annoying? His song is so so sweet joyfully praising the arrival of Spring…or perhaps trying to get the attention of a female wonderful, little songbird because, it is Spring.

Well, let me tell you what this little pecker is doing…

From the first light of morning, through the late afternoon, he is repeatedly hurtling his little songbird body against my windows…especially THIS window, the window he has CRACKED by repeatedly flying into the window. Do you see the crack on the right side of the window in the above picture? That freaky, little songbird did that!

Google why birds fly into windows or how to prevent birds from flying into windows and you discover that they do this because this particular type of bird sees his reflection in the windows and is trying to scare or fight off the competition from the female he is trying to mate with. So basically he is a horny bird fighting with himself thinking that it is another horny bird trying to steal his girl. Google will also warn you that this is leading to the deaths of birds because they are flying into your windows which of course means that you are the asshole for living in a house with windows which reflect the birds’ images and habitat in the sunlight. Their blood is on YOUR hands! It’s almost as bad as if you were to have a domesticated cat and let them go outside to explore…almost…pretty close. Google is trying to make me feel guilt and shame for having a house…with deadly windows. I would feel shamed except for the fact I have a HUGE CRACK in my window thanks to horny, stupid bird. I won’t lie, I’d let Albert go outside to explore and hopefully get rid of the damn bird if he wasn’t such a scaredy cat right now.

And speaking of cats…

This one…our little 7 pound ball of fur…less than half Albert’s size, Zelda, the Alpha kitty, has way too much on her plate at the moment because Albert the giant scaredy cat, Betty the dumb Australian shepherd who just wants to play and that bird…that bird!!! Her struggle of does she continue to establish her reign as The Alpha Kitty with this guest who is twice her size and the stupid dog that wants to play or does she try to figure out a way to get to the horny bird smashing himself repeatedly in the skylight window 18 feet out of her reach. You can’t imagine the struggle she is dealing with right now!

The struggle is real!

Exhausting too!

So basically Albert is a big scaredy cat, Betty is a ridiculous hot mess, Zelda is a bully and that bird is an asshole.

We just had to have animals in this circus!